Is my energy higher than the thing I'm creating?

I was listening to Elise Loehnen's podcast Pulling the Thread the other day and she said "Your vibration must be higher than the thing you create, otherwise you cannot manage it." 

I really liked this and it's giving me one more way of processing my work with Ruminate, the literary magazine I dreamed up and led from 2006-2019.  

I never could get Ruminate to a place where it was financially sustainable, which felt like a failure at a the time but I've been examining this story lately.

And when I heard Elise's words I wondered: what if we just became energetically mis-matched? Initially my energy was higher than the thing I was creating, but over the years, as Ruminate needed to grow and as I experienced a lot of self-doubt, I found myself feeling ten steps behind and unable to "manage it."

I like this framework—it feels true. And it feels like a kind way of telling the story.

I was talking to a colleague about this the other day and she asked if I ever actually thought an indie literary magazine could be financially viable long-term. I paused and told her: I did! Even though I knew the very nature of literary magazines is that they are ephemeral (I studied this for my Master's Thesis)! And then we both laughed.

What can I say, I'm an optimist and I guess I really like a challenge. Ha!   

Anyway, I think Elise's idea is a useful question for all creatives and entrepreneurs:

Is my energy/vibration/capacity higher than the thing I am creating? If so, green light! If not, it will be difficult to manage. 

And I think it turns out to also be a useful framework for making sense of why things aren't working or didn't work.

What about you? Does this ring true for you?

Are you also metabolizing any old "failure stories" in a new way?

I'd love to hear. 

With care,
Brianna

photo by Karim Manjra