wild puttering

I was recently trying to answer this question from a class I’m taking—what do you dream about or visualize when you imagine your future?

I closed my eyes and sat still and I had a faint vision of me puttering around a cozy home. Yep, that's it. And I was surprised, like really imagination, that’s the best you can come up with? It seemed like my dreams should be a bigger. Ha!
 
I had a session with a spiritual director some years ago and I told her some of what I was grappling with as I was facing some big decisions in my life. She stood up and said she wanted to tell me something. And then she spread out her feet in a wide stance and put her hands on her hips and said: In the next ten years you are going to become a wild woman.
 
I couldn't see it then, but I loved that she could. She had a vision for my future, and in those intervening years, I remember borrowing from her vision, which perhaps is a very solid way to begin. 

And what I've discovered over the years is that each person's version of "wild" looks different. My version of wild is less about big, bold adventures and more about the inner travels, and no version is right or wrong, just good to know.

For me, it's like this—let’s say there is a woman who moves from her bed to the kitchen table to the walk around her neighborhood to her desk to the kitchen table to the couch to her bed and her atmosphere is a calm pond around her and she lives behind her belly button. She is not constantly dispersed waves going out to her lover and child and the dying tree and the thing she said yesterday. She is contained within herself and she is present. She is making something. She is in fact smelling of almonds while the earth circles the sun.

Whew, she sounds like a wild woman, and like she enjoys puttering around a cozy home.  :)

Gratefully,
Brianna

P.S. Wanna dream together? I'm here to help folks listen for and move toward their truest selves and truest dreams. And this kind of work is not about achieving and checking off individual goals. This is about trusting ourselves, and when we begin to trust and align with our own deep desires we can begin to take conscious responsibility for the life we've been given, which is a "mighty kindness" as Rumi says—it actually lightens the load of everything and everyone around us. 

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